Day 16 – Quick Letter to a Younger Me

Dear Past Me,

Specifically 16 year old me, for several reasons:

  1. You have just finished IGCSE and are starting the crazy world of IB… I pity you, and want to reassure you that: Yes you do get through it and go to university.
  2. 2014 was a pretty dang eventful year (Ebola, Sochi games, MH370 & 17, Occupy Central etc), but 2017 is… well Trump is president of the  US, the UK is fixing to leave the EU and I still have acne. On the plus side, I’ve run 10km in the Standard Charter Marathon. I’ll give you a second to recover from the shock, no I am not messing with you here.
  3. 3 years ago seems just far enough back that I could give myself good advice without causing a paradox that destroys the universe via a butterfly effect
  4. I needed something to write for this post a day challenge I’m doing on day 16. No, it is not for homework and yes, you do make a blog and write stuff to fill your summers with.

Since you probably think this is a hoax:

You own a green diary that you switch over to a blue diary on the 31st of December. You wrote down “Walking on Sunshine” as your favorite song (really? REALLY? I mean I we never claimed to have good taste in music but man…. oh wait cus from that episode of Supernatural… still though) and felt the need to tell me that your favorite kitchen smell (the heck?) is and I quote: ” COOKIES! :P” . You are in that “soo random lols” phase of my life aren’t you…

Yes I do have that diary on my lap now and am not-so-subtly judging you.

Sorry ’bout that, but hey you did call me an old fart and did write one of your pages in glittery freaking orange pen, getting the herpes of craft supplies on me… “not having another nearby pen” is not an excuse for booby trapping a diary. Jerk.

Anyways, to inject some positivity into this…

This is where I put advice isn’t it… huh. Never was any good at this, though I’ll still try (cus that is what you do dang it! You go off an try your hardest at any dang thing that comes your way.. ehem.)

*spoilers ahead I guess *

  • I don’t have any betting advice for you – just putting that out there first. Just don’t get involved with it, even if there is time travel involved
  • No, you still don’t have my life “sorted out” yet. I’m doing both by doubling in History and Biology in Uni- no no not ivy. You didn’t get in and besides would have been absolutely miserable there if you had. You end up going to HKU and having a blast so far, though don’t want to jinx it!
  • Listen more than you talk. You tend to miss a lots of things you would have noticed had you paid more attention, or lose things easily because you are so absent minded. Try to kick the habit early, it would be very helpful.
  • Your instincts are right. there are some jerks in the higher ups at school, especially after 2015 when a lot of the awesome teachers leave your school. Keep calm and carry on. Don’t get confrontational cus it is just going to get you pissed beyond belief and they won’t care. You will end up fine in the end despite some people pulling you down.
  • Keep in contact with your close friends. Even though they may go abroad to study, they still will give you good advise and their whatsapp messages will brighten almost any down day you might have.
  • Get out there more and challenge yourself more! Lots of things you try turn out well (such as that first aid thing you have been thinking about forever and finally do in 2015) and if they don’t, well you have learned from the experience!
  • Don’t stress out so much about things beyond your control or push yourself too much. You don’t turn out to be a mega super famous star actor, writer, athlete, whatever by 19, and that is fine, great even! Gives you more of a chance to spread out and learn about things that interest you. Compare yourself to yourself, not to others.

I suspect I’ve lost your attention by now so I’ll wrap this up (its getting late here as well).

Forgot to mention that the family is doing great: happy and healthy, which is the most important thing!

But yeah, hope this advice was helpful and that I prepared you somewhat for the years to come. Perhaps I will write a letter to future me some day, though that is for another time.

Good luck and all the best!

The Future 19 year old Rebecca

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Day 2 – Time limits, Nostalgia & Assassins

Okay, the time now is 11:11pm on Tuesday night. I have less than 50 minutes to type, review and submit this post to meet the deadline, so here goes nothing!

I should probably think about having some posts or topics prewritten and ready to submit so that I am not in the same situation in the future, typing like the wind and trying to come up with a topic off the top of my head.

Reason I didn’t do this earlier is that I was volunteering at a Toybank today with HandsOn Hong Kong, and didn’t get back until a few minutes ago (okay that is a bit of a fib, I ate dinner at McDonalds before coming home – super unhealthy but incredibly convenient. Side note, Mc D’s has a free sundae with meals bought after like 7… weird… anyways)

I continue to be amazed at how much energy and enthusiasm kids have, like playing monkey in the middle for nearly 30 min straight and still being able to run around, scream and riffle through the toys. Even with another volunteer (shout out to Ophelia) it still felt draining after we finished the whole shift. Not that it is a criticism, I was like that when I was little (in fact, probably worse) but it gives me a greater appreciation for all the parents, teachers and adults who put up with me then.

I understand now, sorry for that. 😛

Sort of feeling nostalgic now… those were the days, removed from the stress of trying to figure out what to do next and how it is related to future goals or whatever. Well a bit, I guess its more melancholic then that, since freedom I have now, while liberating comes with the need to make responsible decisions, with no one else taking the fall if I fail to do so

Someone needs to make up a word for that feeling… just sayin’

Reminds me of that final monologue bit from Assassin’s Creed Unity by Arno (might also be because of the E3 trailer launch of AC: Origins today, which looks pretty cool but I digress). Would look it up but need time to spell check and come up with a title etc, so I’ll probably link to it later. But paraphrasing:

The creed “nothing is true and everything is permitted” doesn’t give us the permission to do whatever we want so choose, rather it serves as a warning, a caution, that only we can guard against our own faults, and decide whether our end goals carry too high of a cost.

Also seems to fit with the current political climate to be honest…

Normally, I would go off on a tangent here (it is the pondering papaya after all) but I am nearing 11:40pm mark now, so I’m going to abruptly end, briefly skim through to correct glaring issues and post.

Title makes this sound more exciting than this actually is, but I couldn’t think of something else, so I’m going with it.

More tomorrow!

-Rebecca